I decided to start blogging to give myself something to do and to have a platform to write out some of my thoughts and feelings. So here goes nothing. I am a 32 year old, turning 33 in 10 days, who recently finalized her divorce and am getting back out into the dating world. Well, maybe trying to get back out into the dating world, but it has not been easy. I have had my fair share of 2-3 night stands and have unfortunately added to my body count. This is not something I am proud of, but nonetheless it has happened. What I really want is a man who wants to be in a long term relationship/marriage and who wants to start a family. I have always wanted to be a mom and I am sad that has not happened for me yet. My biggest regret or fear in life is that my parents won’t live to see my children grow up. My parents play a big role in my life and I want them to be in the life of my future children as well. Anyway, being divorced has not been fun. There is a lot of trauma I am still working through and I have somehow developed a coping mechanism to just forget about the past and move on… Now while that is not terrible, it does prevent me from working through the past issues I have faced. I just don’t want to make the same mistakes I made before in my marriage. I want to speak up for myself and I want a partner who looks to me for input and advice, not looks down on me.